I'm done shooting for a decent relationship nothing noteworthy or special at this point I'm only looking - to stop from throwing myself off a cliff or into a bus. I'm keeping my expectations so low even I might qualify. so tired of finding good guys, I want a mistake, a problem. where we can keep running back promises of next time, "next time it'll be different." I don't want to be someones princess anymore nothing to be proud of. I want people to disapprove to ask why - "you could do - so much better then him." I don't want to do better or aim any higher. I want to be unappriciated to have him tell me, he could be doing better. I'm self destructive to a point where a bus at 80 mph - is high up on my list.
